CSU lost a student today. I really didn't even know him. Was introduced to him at a party and knew of him. And yet I still feel so incredibly sad for everyone who did know him, and his family. It sends replays into my mind of the moment I found out that Rea died. I don't wish these moments on anyone. All we can do is pray and hope and be there for each other.

Rest in Peace Joel.

Chaucy Monster

I had to make one of the toughest decisions I have ever made yesterday.

Chaucer had gone in to get neutered and while he was in we had him tested for Feline Leukemia because one of the other kittens in his litter had it. Since only one of the other kittens had it we were sure we had nothing to worry about but just wanted to get him tested. Well at 9:30 in the morning I got the call that he did in fact have it. My world came crashing own. I know it seems a bit melo dramatic that I was this upset over my cat being sick but really my little world didn't h ave far to fall. You see this also happened to be the morning of my best friend's father's funeral.

I called Josh to ask him what he thought we should do but he was just as distraught as I was. There were two choices. 1. Let him live. and 2. Have him put down. I wanted nothing more than to let him live. To have my little boy come home that very night as if nothing had happened. But I knew that by letting him live meant a lifetime of suffering for my little monster.

The way this illness works in cats is they either get sick and die or they live the rest of their life never being sick but always able to pass it on to others. But were we willing to take this 50/50 shot that he would not suffer? Did I mention that a cats life expectancy with leukemia is 3 months to 3 years? Our time with him would be numbered. Also he could never be around babies Even though cats can not spread the illness to humans a babies immune system is so low that it would still make them sick. Knowing that Josh and I want to start a family in about 5 years also made our time with Chaucer limited. And what were we going to do say well we wnat kids now so I guess it's time to put the cat down.

If you haven't already guessed we opted to have Chaucer put down. After seeing Ghost ( our yard cat) suffer until the day he died I just couldn't do that again. Of course I wasn't in Columbus when I made this choice so coming home today was so much fun. Walking in the front door and not being greeted by him was so very sad. My tiny house now feels large and empty. I have been the only one home for most of the day and I feel so depressed to be here by myself.

That little boy drove me up the wall. He chewed threw my cell phone charger, her chewed threw my ipod charger. He eat anything he could fit in his mouth. He always attacked my knitting and woke me up at 6:30 every morning. He bit my face and attacked my feet and always jumped in the sink.

And I am going to miss him so so much.

Nannying it up and some updates

For a month now I have been nannying to amazing little girls. It a job that is so much more amazing than I ever thought it would be. It is days full of playing and laughing a lots and lots of play dough. I am not saying that it is always easy. There are hissy fits and sibling rivalry but it is all a learning experience. I love these two little girls so much already.

Because of nannying I am busy all the time. Get off work around 5 trying to be in bed by 10 and trying to have a social life.... which for me really means knitting a whole lot. I am totally ok with this is :)

Springer starts back up on the 17th and I am so excited to be working in theatre again.

On a much sadder note something that I have been dreading for about 7 years now happened. My best friend's dad passed away . For some reason I thought that since we knew it had been such a long time coming that it would be easier but it just isn't. The Donaldsons have been my second family my entire life. I know that he is not suffering anymore and that he is at peace and that makes me feel a little better, but it will all just take time.

Things are going in a good direction right now. And I am happy with they way things are :)

My Best Friend's Wedding

Yesterday my best friend Shannon got married :D

They had a beautiful location in Stone Mountain in a hotel that I didn't even know was behind the mountain.

She looked beautiful and so did the ceremony.

It was a wonderful day and I am so happy I got to spend it with her.

Wait..... Done Dog Done????

Tomorrow officially ends my summer at The Springer Theatre Academy.

-how is it possible that 40 days have already come and gone?!

Let's start with Go,Dog.GO!

What an amazing experience!!There were times when it was hard but it was always oh so much fun. My A5's were so amazing and talented. This is a very hard show, and they took on the challenge with eagerness and did so amazing! After two weeks of shows, it was very hard to see it end. To watch Springer students who have been doing this since they were 5 years old have to say goodbye to being a Springer Student. I am not going to lie. When they gave each other their tributes I lost it. I am so glad that I got this opportunity.

After the show closed it was right back into TA mode. Although with it being the week of 7 presentations it wasn't like I had to much teaching to do. It was a lot of watching what they had been working on and getting to sit there in awe of their talent. A4 made me cry like a little girl and impressed me more than they will ever know. A3 also showed great talent and put on a really cute show.

Tomorrow night is banquet. I have been told I am going to cry my eyes out. It is a time to honor all the hard work the students have done this summer. I am so proud of all of the students I got to work with this summer and am just so sad to see it come to an end.

I don't know what I was expecting to get out of this summer. But the knowledge and experience that I gained will be something that I never forget.

Summer Time and the Living is Hectic

I think it is safe to say that this is one of the busiest summers that I have had to date. Since I haven't updated since graduation I guess I will start with Maymester.

So this May CSU started the Columbus Rep Theatre. This means that for 3 weeks I did nothing but work in the scene shop and go to rehearsals for Nunsense. It was a hectic and stressful time but all in all worth it. The girls are amazing and the show looks great. The process was not without it's drama and it's craziness but for the most part a very enjoyable time.

Now on to June. 23rd birthday, woot! 2 years with Josh! And now Springer Theatre Academy! We are in week 3 of Academy and I am loving it! Getting to see so many groups of kids grow over the last 3 weeks have been so amazing. It is crazy at times and comes with a lot of mornings waking up way before I want to but it is so worth it.

Already I have gotten used to waking up at 7am. This also means that on the weekends I am normally up by 8 or 9 since this is now sleeping in for me. I have gone back to my extreme hermitness and going to bed before midnight but let's be real I am ok with this.

Also on the agenda for this summer has been a whole lot of reading! I am on my 9th book since May. It is one of my favorite things of the summer, just having the time to read a good book at the end of the day to help me unwind.

Josh is busy sending off resumes and trying to land his dram job. I however am trying not to stress about my job situation until later in July. I may have a job in the works but nothing is too final yet. As the summer goes on I am able to completely evaluate a game plan for life after college and look into possibilities that are arising.

Goodbye Undergrad

I have been putting off writing this, as if not writing it will stop the end of my undergrad from coming. But I know that is not how it works.

These five years at CSU have been some of the best and the worst times of my life. I have grown so much as a person, as an actor, a technician and a teacher. Who would have thought that a girl who knew so little about theatre would leave someone so confident in an art that they love. Yes there have been hard times. Yes there are times that I want to throw in the towel, but in the end this is who I am and what I want to do.

I want to end this with some advice to my freshman self.

1. Get enough sleep, but the nights you stay up too late with your friends just because will be magical.

2.Eat. Even when you feel like you don't need to, eat.

3.Study, after all it is what you are here to do.

4.Take every opportunity and make some of your own.

5.Don't be afraid to let people in.

6. Dating is scary, and no one is really good at it.

7. Don't let the cast list dictate your happiness.

Times are going to be hard, but you are going to learn so much from them. This is your time to do what you want to do and learn what you want to learn so enjoy it.

So with that I say goodbye to my undergrad and hello to my new life.