It is very strange to go from updating everyday to never updating.
These past few weeks have been crazy busy. I feel like I live in this whirl wind that if you blink you miss 50 things.
I got to go to Aubrun with what I am sure to be one of my only free weekends until November. It was great to see Shannon and to get out of Columbus for a little while.
I survived understudy run of God's Ear. And the comedic effect the show was given with Garrett and I jumping in and out of different characters I am sure was a much needed break from the depressing show that it normally is. With that being said we also opened and closed God's Ear. I almost had to go on but luckily I did not. The show seemed to be well received and effected some people much more than I thought it was going to. I guess that when you have seen the show a million times sometimes the effect gets lost on you. But I am glad that it made people think and even scared them to a point. Even though we don't always appreciate it when theatre does it to us I am glad that it is able to have that effect on people.
This semester has already seen so long and draining. I almost feel as if nothing more could happen, good or bad. But I know that is not true. Most of the time I don't want to think about any of it. I would just like to pretend that everything is sunshine and rainbows. But I can't help anyone and I can't help myself by thinking that way. Things just change so fast around here its almost hard to keep up with it all. I just remind myself. Trust who you know you can trust. Love who you can love. And put faith in yourself and God.
Monday, September 21, 2009
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
Union Jack
I have decided not to do GTC this year.
I was presented with two options.
1. Go to GTC, God willing go to SETC and once again God willing get summer work.
-This would mean being gone for the whole summer working at a theatre, like I have the past two summers only hopefully this time acting.
2. Go to England.
- Josh has asked me to go to England with him this summer for his grandpartent's 50th wedding anniversary.
For some reason this decision wasn't that hard for me to make. Almost from the moment that he asked I knew that I would go. But I did have to think about it. It is passing up an opportunity to act. But I feel like not going is also passing up a life experience. Besides Mexico I have never been out of the country, and lets face it I have always wanted to go to England.
I also feel like completely taking a summer away from theatre will be good for me. I just get so burnt out here with school that I don't want to lose a my passion with being so burnt out.
I'm still getting used to making decisions that will effect me in this much of the long term. Because I know that in saying I will go I am putting a lot of faith in trust in my relationship. Because obviously I will only get to go if we are still together 6months from now.
Deep breaths.
I was presented with two options.
1. Go to GTC, God willing go to SETC and once again God willing get summer work.
-This would mean being gone for the whole summer working at a theatre, like I have the past two summers only hopefully this time acting.
2. Go to England.
- Josh has asked me to go to England with him this summer for his grandpartent's 50th wedding anniversary.
For some reason this decision wasn't that hard for me to make. Almost from the moment that he asked I knew that I would go. But I did have to think about it. It is passing up an opportunity to act. But I feel like not going is also passing up a life experience. Besides Mexico I have never been out of the country, and lets face it I have always wanted to go to England.
I also feel like completely taking a summer away from theatre will be good for me. I just get so burnt out here with school that I don't want to lose a my passion with being so burnt out.
I'm still getting used to making decisions that will effect me in this much of the long term. Because I know that in saying I will go I am putting a lot of faith in trust in my relationship. Because obviously I will only get to go if we are still together 6months from now.
Deep breaths.
Sunday, August 16, 2009
Shh I am trying to imagine the rest of my life without you.
I am home.
Being back in Columbus has been wonderful. I know I said it a lot this summer but to actually get back here and not have issues from last year was a really great thing. And the fact that it actually worked out the way I wanted it to was more than I could have asked for.
There is only one thing I wish I could change. But I know that I can't. I guess sometimes you just have to deal with the fact that people will decided not to have you in their lives anymore. But I am the happiest I have been in years and I am not going to let it bring me down.
Gods Ear rehearsals have been going really well. I am excited to see this show grow.
I have been putting a lot of thought into the future lately. With only a year and half left its something I have to do. But I am not used to having plans. I am not used to planning for thing that are months or years away. But I find myself doing it more and more.
England
Boston
This time last year these things would have sent me running. But I don't want to run anymore. No one is promising me forever. But right now I don't need it.
Being back in Columbus has been wonderful. I know I said it a lot this summer but to actually get back here and not have issues from last year was a really great thing. And the fact that it actually worked out the way I wanted it to was more than I could have asked for.
There is only one thing I wish I could change. But I know that I can't. I guess sometimes you just have to deal with the fact that people will decided not to have you in their lives anymore. But I am the happiest I have been in years and I am not going to let it bring me down.
Gods Ear rehearsals have been going really well. I am excited to see this show grow.
I have been putting a lot of thought into the future lately. With only a year and half left its something I have to do. But I am not used to having plans. I am not used to planning for thing that are months or years away. But I find myself doing it more and more.
England
Boston
This time last year these things would have sent me running. But I don't want to run anymore. No one is promising me forever. But right now I don't need it.
Saturday, August 8, 2009
Day Seventy
Well its my last morning here on the rock. I am writing this at 6:45 in the morning because I could not sleep.
Last night was, well the word amazing doesn't really even begin to describe it but its the only word I can really think of at the moment. It started out at the fire pit. We all got candles and passed around the flame and then walked up to the grassy hill next to my housing. We then listened to the second years talk about what Flat Rock has meant to them, to us. We then watched a really cool fire show. Then it was up to the paint deck. The acts at Chet were not like the ones at normal midnight studios. They had a lot more meaning to them. Most of them where about saying goodbye. Maze sang a song all about flat rock, just turn left on little river road. Chris sang a song he wrote, he called it his goodbye song. Jesse did a great monologue, Scarecrow I will miss you most of all. Brenna, Austin,and Bently all sang songs. John did a dance. Cindy, Tressa,Ryan and I sat linking arms pretty much the whole night. At the very end the came around with rollers and painted everyones hands, then we left our hand prints on the deck. We then proceeded to smear it on each other. Then it was time for goodbyes. Most people didn't know that I was leaving today. It made it that much harder to say goodbye.
The second years said something last night that rings very true to me. We found family,friends, love, and happiness up here. But most unexpectingly we found ourselves. I am going to miss it here so much. But in an hour I will say goodbye to my roommates for the last time. Get in my car and drive off lot. Its hard not to look back, to want to do it all over. But I know that the magic would be gone. My time here has run its course and I have gotten more out of it then I could have ever hoped to. And now its time for a new start.
Last night was, well the word amazing doesn't really even begin to describe it but its the only word I can really think of at the moment. It started out at the fire pit. We all got candles and passed around the flame and then walked up to the grassy hill next to my housing. We then listened to the second years talk about what Flat Rock has meant to them, to us. We then watched a really cool fire show. Then it was up to the paint deck. The acts at Chet were not like the ones at normal midnight studios. They had a lot more meaning to them. Most of them where about saying goodbye. Maze sang a song all about flat rock, just turn left on little river road. Chris sang a song he wrote, he called it his goodbye song. Jesse did a great monologue, Scarecrow I will miss you most of all. Brenna, Austin,and Bently all sang songs. John did a dance. Cindy, Tressa,Ryan and I sat linking arms pretty much the whole night. At the very end the came around with rollers and painted everyones hands, then we left our hand prints on the deck. We then proceeded to smear it on each other. Then it was time for goodbyes. Most people didn't know that I was leaving today. It made it that much harder to say goodbye.
The second years said something last night that rings very true to me. We found family,friends, love, and happiness up here. But most unexpectingly we found ourselves. I am going to miss it here so much. But in an hour I will say goodbye to my roommates for the last time. Get in my car and drive off lot. Its hard not to look back, to want to do it all over. But I know that the magic would be gone. My time here has run its course and I have gotten more out of it then I could have ever hoped to. And now its time for a new start.
Friday, August 7, 2009
Day Sixty-Nine
Last day of camp!
We didn't think we would make it but we did. The kids where just as crazy as ever today. One even got most of her skirt wet during snack playing near the creek. But the show went well and in the end that is the important part. I got a nice thank you card from Tania as well as a painting that she had done. After work I walked over to the Wrinkled Egg to spend my gift card. I got this wall hanging that says LiveaGoodLife. I think it will go well in our home. I came home and took a quick nap and then finished my packing. Everything except what I need for tonight and tomorrow morning is in my car.
This has been hands down the best summer since I started college and most likely one of the best summers I have ever had. I am so sad that it is coming to an end. Although I can not think of a better way to spend the last week of it then in Columbus with my friends, going to rehearsal and the pool. And even though I have a list of things to do when I get back to Columbus, I will relax this week and enjoy one of my only true weeks of summer vacation. I am going to be very sad to be saying goodbye to everyone at midnight studio tonight and then driving off lot in the morning. As much as I miss home I have grown very fond of this place and I will miss it a great deal.
But I also know that one can not stay in one place forever. I will get to go home and see all the people who I love and have not gotten to see this summer. And start a great new year with a new outlook and re energized.
We didn't think we would make it but we did. The kids where just as crazy as ever today. One even got most of her skirt wet during snack playing near the creek. But the show went well and in the end that is the important part. I got a nice thank you card from Tania as well as a painting that she had done. After work I walked over to the Wrinkled Egg to spend my gift card. I got this wall hanging that says LiveaGoodLife. I think it will go well in our home. I came home and took a quick nap and then finished my packing. Everything except what I need for tonight and tomorrow morning is in my car.
This has been hands down the best summer since I started college and most likely one of the best summers I have ever had. I am so sad that it is coming to an end. Although I can not think of a better way to spend the last week of it then in Columbus with my friends, going to rehearsal and the pool. And even though I have a list of things to do when I get back to Columbus, I will relax this week and enjoy one of my only true weeks of summer vacation. I am going to be very sad to be saying goodbye to everyone at midnight studio tonight and then driving off lot in the morning. As much as I miss home I have grown very fond of this place and I will miss it a great deal.
But I also know that one can not stay in one place forever. I will get to go home and see all the people who I love and have not gotten to see this summer. And start a great new year with a new outlook and re energized.
Thursday, August 6, 2009
Day Sixty-Eight
Easiest day of camp to date.
Last day seeing Rootabaga! Stories. Then Tania and I decided to take them to see the goats. By the time we got back to the education center it was 11:35. I got them their Popsicles and then I left for lunch. After lunch I downloaded the last of the pictures, cleaned my desk off, vacuumed the office and swept the stairs, then I was done. All I have to do tomorrow is count up how many people came to see the shows and turn in my keys.
Now that this summer is over it has seemed to go by so fast.
I am really happy with the way things have worked out.
I love that I didn't gain a bunch of wait this summer. And that I will continue to workout once I get back. The friends and contacts that I have made. The relationship I have grown. This year is going to busy but good.
Last day seeing Rootabaga! Stories. Then Tania and I decided to take them to see the goats. By the time we got back to the education center it was 11:35. I got them their Popsicles and then I left for lunch. After lunch I downloaded the last of the pictures, cleaned my desk off, vacuumed the office and swept the stairs, then I was done. All I have to do tomorrow is count up how many people came to see the shows and turn in my keys.
Now that this summer is over it has seemed to go by so fast.
I am really happy with the way things have worked out.
I love that I didn't gain a bunch of wait this summer. And that I will continue to workout once I get back. The friends and contacts that I have made. The relationship I have grown. This year is going to busy but good.
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
Day Sixty-Seven
Only two more days with these kids.
This weeks kids are driving me nuts! It doesn't help that we are ready for it to be over. But I am trying to make the best of it. I did get to leave my camp for a while today when a little girl in the Suseing around camp got stung by a bee. I sat with her and talked with her till she calmed down.
After work began the fun process of school stuff. Thank God my mom is amazing and was willing to sit on hold with CSU for me today. She was on hold for about an hour. But we finally got some of the stuff kinda worked out. I had to e-mail someone about my finical aid. Payed my balance. Tried to get in touch with housing but their voice mail was full so I am just going to call back in the morning. I hate being stressed out by school stuff when I'm not at school. Well really at all but when you are 300 miles away it just seems worse.
Dinner tonight was well.... lack luster.
The conversation went something like this.
Ryan: So Jim said that we might have to heat up our vegetables.
Maddie: No kidding! They are still FROZEN. Look there is ice on my broccoli.
Ryan: So second dinner?
This weeks kids are driving me nuts! It doesn't help that we are ready for it to be over. But I am trying to make the best of it. I did get to leave my camp for a while today when a little girl in the Suseing around camp got stung by a bee. I sat with her and talked with her till she calmed down.
After work began the fun process of school stuff. Thank God my mom is amazing and was willing to sit on hold with CSU for me today. She was on hold for about an hour. But we finally got some of the stuff kinda worked out. I had to e-mail someone about my finical aid. Payed my balance. Tried to get in touch with housing but their voice mail was full so I am just going to call back in the morning. I hate being stressed out by school stuff when I'm not at school. Well really at all but when you are 300 miles away it just seems worse.
Dinner tonight was well.... lack luster.
The conversation went something like this.
Ryan: So Jim said that we might have to heat up our vegetables.
Maddie: No kidding! They are still FROZEN. Look there is ice on my broccoli.
Ryan: So second dinner?
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