An update on the life of a burnt out college student

As we reach this point in the semester I find it harder and harder to care about most things. Mostly school. There are days I am sure I could just sleep all day but I am never quite sure if that would even help this eternal state of half awake I seem to find myself in. Some days I even forget that I am almost done. In 19 days I will walk across that stage and worry about what comes next. Like I haven't been worrying about that for the last five years...

As strange as it sounds I don't always feel ready to leave. I know that I am ready but I am not always sure that my heart and my head are in the same place. I like school. I get burnt out on it but in the end I really like school. I like being a student. It isn't even a because it is a carefree lifestyle thing. Or a not wanting to grow up thing. I just like school. It makes me wonder if I should look into grad programs, but I just can't will myself to do it. As much as I like school, I think that I have been in some sort of a learning center/school since I was 9 months old and it makes me realize that it is time to get out.

But on the now. 2 weeks of classes left. 19 days till graduation. A whole lot of stress in between. And an strange calm that has set over me.

My last spring break

53 days.

In 53 days I will walk across the stage and be a graduate of CSU. This is still sinking in.

But on to things that don't give me stress dreams.

Last week was my last spring break! It was a great week of relaxing and getting to spend time with friends. On Thursday My mom, Josh and I drove down to Savannah. We went to just check some places out for the wedding. After doing some research from home we were all coming to the conclusion that the wedding might have to be somewhere else. As bummed as I was about this I knew it might be for the best money wise. After looking around on the first day it was looking like Savannah was even more out of the question than we thought. Considering the only place we really liked was a ten thousand dollar MINIMUM!! However on day two we fell in love with a venue.

This is the courtyard of the Mulberry Inn. The lighted room you can see is where the dinner will take place and the doors at the back of the courtyard leads to the dancing area. It was perfect for us. And at a price that didn't make us want to get married by Elvis.

Of course once you have a venue and hear the price the money thing starts to weigh on your mind.I am more than a little stressed out about how many people to invite and were to get the money to pay for this but I know that it will all work out in the end.

While in Savannah I got sick. ugh. I tried so hard to pretend that I wasn't but to no avail. That was a week ago, and I am still sick and now so is Josh.

Internship wise things are still going great. I don't get to work there as many hours as I was before because my new class has started but I am still at least 10 hours a week.

Now I just have to sit back and enjoy my last little time in college. 53 days... wow.

Week 3

These last two weeks of my internship have been a lot of work and a lot of fun!

Last weekend was my very last Thescon. I am happy to say that not only did I survive but it also ran very smoothly. There are always some bumps in the road but nothing too big. It is so strange to know that it is my last Thescon I ever have to go to.

On the internship side I have been busy busy busy! The season announcement party is the 24th so I have been preparing for that. It means a lot of envelopes need to be stuffed and a lot of lists need to be looked at to make sure no one has been left off the list or that we aren't sending invites to the same person more than once. I feel like I am always in a battle with my new nemesis, the printer. I will win this one!

In Dreams/Nightmares opens this week, which is crazy to believe because I feel like we just started. I am both nervous and excited for it to go up. But mainly just excited that I get to see my family and friends!

Internship

New Year, new Internship.

Unlike my last two internships this one is a little closer to home. And of course by a little I mean 15 minutes from my house. This semester I am interning at The Springer Opera House (http://springeroperahouse.org/plaintext/home/home.aspx).

My positions doesn't excatally have a name. I am the nomad of interns. If someone needs help doing something well than that is what I am doing for the day. Right now I am printing hundreds of envelopes and praying that none of them end up upside down...

Unlike my last internship blog I do not plan on updating this one every day. How know, it could happen but I'm not planning on it this time. So here is my list of things I am excited about with this internship


1. Getting to work somewhere that I know people and the place.
2. Getting to work in many different areas of the theatre.
3. Getting to sit in on rehearsals for the different shows going on.


I'm sure there are more but the printing is distracting me.

Pushing Those Limits

This week has been a big challenge for me physically.

Everyday I have either worked out, danced or both. I can feel it in every part of my aching body too. My joints hurt, my feet are sore, my knees and back are bruised and I love every minute of it!

It has pushed my knee and ankle to their limits. I can't even remember the last time my ankle really got swollen but it sure did last night. Luckily Josh went out and bought me an awesome ice pack. My knee has been hurting but it is always hard to tell if it is because it is actually hurt or because it is so flipping cold outside!

It has been a great first week of my last semester :)

Cabin Fever

I find it funny that when I get Cabin Fever I get productive.

I've loved having this time off but I am going stir crazy. Case and point the house. Since this break started I have reorganized every room in the house but the bath room and Megan's bedroom. I've done loads of dishes, witch is the one chore I don't have to do here. We bought a bookshelf and moved all of Josh's and my's movies onto it. This caused us to move the chair and to reorganize the bookshelves in the other room. I've cleaned out the drawers in my bedroom and threw out a bunch of stuff that I don't need anymore. I even got Josh to get rid of some of his old shirts. I even cleaned off my vanity and made it much more usable.

I have also found loads of time to cook and bake. It has been wonderful! It is something that I have always loved to do but just never really have the time for. I know that once classes start tomorrow the only real day I will have time to cook a big meal will be on Sundays. Other days I will have to make due with the fast recipes that I have found.

I will be sad to see this free/productive time go but at the same time I am so ready to be busy again. I also know that after I graduate I wont always be busy with things I like to do so I guess I will embrace this time while I have it.

Resolutions

I'm normally not big on New Years resolutions. They don't get kept or I forget about them. This year I plan on doing some that I think I can actually do.

1. 365 Picture Project: This is something I have wanted to do for a while but decided to wait until the new year to start. You have to take at least one picture every day of the year. I have already put up my first one on Facebook!

2. No Jeans for 1 month. I read about this on Collegefashion.net I wear a lot of jeans so I think this will be a fun challenge for me.

3. Another idea from college fashion, One month dedicated to dresses. I own a few dresses so this wont be the hardest thing in the world but I think the fun part will be finding new ways to wear the dresses so they don't get boring.

4. Read at least one book that is a classic that I just never got around to reading before.


That is were I am starting for now.


Cheers to 2011!