I am home.
Being back in Columbus has been wonderful. I know I said it a lot this summer but to actually get back here and not have issues from last year was a really great thing. And the fact that it actually worked out the way I wanted it to was more than I could have asked for.
There is only one thing I wish I could change. But I know that I can't. I guess sometimes you just have to deal with the fact that people will decided not to have you in their lives anymore. But I am the happiest I have been in years and I am not going to let it bring me down.
Gods Ear rehearsals have been going really well. I am excited to see this show grow.
I have been putting a lot of thought into the future lately. With only a year and half left its something I have to do. But I am not used to having plans. I am not used to planning for thing that are months or years away. But I find myself doing it more and more.
England
Boston
This time last year these things would have sent me running. But I don't want to run anymore. No one is promising me forever. But right now I don't need it.
Sunday, August 16, 2009
Saturday, August 8, 2009
Day Seventy
Well its my last morning here on the rock. I am writing this at 6:45 in the morning because I could not sleep.
Last night was, well the word amazing doesn't really even begin to describe it but its the only word I can really think of at the moment. It started out at the fire pit. We all got candles and passed around the flame and then walked up to the grassy hill next to my housing. We then listened to the second years talk about what Flat Rock has meant to them, to us. We then watched a really cool fire show. Then it was up to the paint deck. The acts at Chet were not like the ones at normal midnight studios. They had a lot more meaning to them. Most of them where about saying goodbye. Maze sang a song all about flat rock, just turn left on little river road. Chris sang a song he wrote, he called it his goodbye song. Jesse did a great monologue, Scarecrow I will miss you most of all. Brenna, Austin,and Bently all sang songs. John did a dance. Cindy, Tressa,Ryan and I sat linking arms pretty much the whole night. At the very end the came around with rollers and painted everyones hands, then we left our hand prints on the deck. We then proceeded to smear it on each other. Then it was time for goodbyes. Most people didn't know that I was leaving today. It made it that much harder to say goodbye.
The second years said something last night that rings very true to me. We found family,friends, love, and happiness up here. But most unexpectingly we found ourselves. I am going to miss it here so much. But in an hour I will say goodbye to my roommates for the last time. Get in my car and drive off lot. Its hard not to look back, to want to do it all over. But I know that the magic would be gone. My time here has run its course and I have gotten more out of it then I could have ever hoped to. And now its time for a new start.
Last night was, well the word amazing doesn't really even begin to describe it but its the only word I can really think of at the moment. It started out at the fire pit. We all got candles and passed around the flame and then walked up to the grassy hill next to my housing. We then listened to the second years talk about what Flat Rock has meant to them, to us. We then watched a really cool fire show. Then it was up to the paint deck. The acts at Chet were not like the ones at normal midnight studios. They had a lot more meaning to them. Most of them where about saying goodbye. Maze sang a song all about flat rock, just turn left on little river road. Chris sang a song he wrote, he called it his goodbye song. Jesse did a great monologue, Scarecrow I will miss you most of all. Brenna, Austin,and Bently all sang songs. John did a dance. Cindy, Tressa,Ryan and I sat linking arms pretty much the whole night. At the very end the came around with rollers and painted everyones hands, then we left our hand prints on the deck. We then proceeded to smear it on each other. Then it was time for goodbyes. Most people didn't know that I was leaving today. It made it that much harder to say goodbye.
The second years said something last night that rings very true to me. We found family,friends, love, and happiness up here. But most unexpectingly we found ourselves. I am going to miss it here so much. But in an hour I will say goodbye to my roommates for the last time. Get in my car and drive off lot. Its hard not to look back, to want to do it all over. But I know that the magic would be gone. My time here has run its course and I have gotten more out of it then I could have ever hoped to. And now its time for a new start.
Friday, August 7, 2009
Day Sixty-Nine
Last day of camp!
We didn't think we would make it but we did. The kids where just as crazy as ever today. One even got most of her skirt wet during snack playing near the creek. But the show went well and in the end that is the important part. I got a nice thank you card from Tania as well as a painting that she had done. After work I walked over to the Wrinkled Egg to spend my gift card. I got this wall hanging that says LiveaGoodLife. I think it will go well in our home. I came home and took a quick nap and then finished my packing. Everything except what I need for tonight and tomorrow morning is in my car.
This has been hands down the best summer since I started college and most likely one of the best summers I have ever had. I am so sad that it is coming to an end. Although I can not think of a better way to spend the last week of it then in Columbus with my friends, going to rehearsal and the pool. And even though I have a list of things to do when I get back to Columbus, I will relax this week and enjoy one of my only true weeks of summer vacation. I am going to be very sad to be saying goodbye to everyone at midnight studio tonight and then driving off lot in the morning. As much as I miss home I have grown very fond of this place and I will miss it a great deal.
But I also know that one can not stay in one place forever. I will get to go home and see all the people who I love and have not gotten to see this summer. And start a great new year with a new outlook and re energized.
We didn't think we would make it but we did. The kids where just as crazy as ever today. One even got most of her skirt wet during snack playing near the creek. But the show went well and in the end that is the important part. I got a nice thank you card from Tania as well as a painting that she had done. After work I walked over to the Wrinkled Egg to spend my gift card. I got this wall hanging that says LiveaGoodLife. I think it will go well in our home. I came home and took a quick nap and then finished my packing. Everything except what I need for tonight and tomorrow morning is in my car.
This has been hands down the best summer since I started college and most likely one of the best summers I have ever had. I am so sad that it is coming to an end. Although I can not think of a better way to spend the last week of it then in Columbus with my friends, going to rehearsal and the pool. And even though I have a list of things to do when I get back to Columbus, I will relax this week and enjoy one of my only true weeks of summer vacation. I am going to be very sad to be saying goodbye to everyone at midnight studio tonight and then driving off lot in the morning. As much as I miss home I have grown very fond of this place and I will miss it a great deal.
But I also know that one can not stay in one place forever. I will get to go home and see all the people who I love and have not gotten to see this summer. And start a great new year with a new outlook and re energized.
Thursday, August 6, 2009
Day Sixty-Eight
Easiest day of camp to date.
Last day seeing Rootabaga! Stories. Then Tania and I decided to take them to see the goats. By the time we got back to the education center it was 11:35. I got them their Popsicles and then I left for lunch. After lunch I downloaded the last of the pictures, cleaned my desk off, vacuumed the office and swept the stairs, then I was done. All I have to do tomorrow is count up how many people came to see the shows and turn in my keys.
Now that this summer is over it has seemed to go by so fast.
I am really happy with the way things have worked out.
I love that I didn't gain a bunch of wait this summer. And that I will continue to workout once I get back. The friends and contacts that I have made. The relationship I have grown. This year is going to busy but good.
Last day seeing Rootabaga! Stories. Then Tania and I decided to take them to see the goats. By the time we got back to the education center it was 11:35. I got them their Popsicles and then I left for lunch. After lunch I downloaded the last of the pictures, cleaned my desk off, vacuumed the office and swept the stairs, then I was done. All I have to do tomorrow is count up how many people came to see the shows and turn in my keys.
Now that this summer is over it has seemed to go by so fast.
I am really happy with the way things have worked out.
I love that I didn't gain a bunch of wait this summer. And that I will continue to workout once I get back. The friends and contacts that I have made. The relationship I have grown. This year is going to busy but good.
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
Day Sixty-Seven
Only two more days with these kids.
This weeks kids are driving me nuts! It doesn't help that we are ready for it to be over. But I am trying to make the best of it. I did get to leave my camp for a while today when a little girl in the Suseing around camp got stung by a bee. I sat with her and talked with her till she calmed down.
After work began the fun process of school stuff. Thank God my mom is amazing and was willing to sit on hold with CSU for me today. She was on hold for about an hour. But we finally got some of the stuff kinda worked out. I had to e-mail someone about my finical aid. Payed my balance. Tried to get in touch with housing but their voice mail was full so I am just going to call back in the morning. I hate being stressed out by school stuff when I'm not at school. Well really at all but when you are 300 miles away it just seems worse.
Dinner tonight was well.... lack luster.
The conversation went something like this.
Ryan: So Jim said that we might have to heat up our vegetables.
Maddie: No kidding! They are still FROZEN. Look there is ice on my broccoli.
Ryan: So second dinner?
This weeks kids are driving me nuts! It doesn't help that we are ready for it to be over. But I am trying to make the best of it. I did get to leave my camp for a while today when a little girl in the Suseing around camp got stung by a bee. I sat with her and talked with her till she calmed down.
After work began the fun process of school stuff. Thank God my mom is amazing and was willing to sit on hold with CSU for me today. She was on hold for about an hour. But we finally got some of the stuff kinda worked out. I had to e-mail someone about my finical aid. Payed my balance. Tried to get in touch with housing but their voice mail was full so I am just going to call back in the morning. I hate being stressed out by school stuff when I'm not at school. Well really at all but when you are 300 miles away it just seems worse.
Dinner tonight was well.... lack luster.
The conversation went something like this.
Ryan: So Jim said that we might have to heat up our vegetables.
Maddie: No kidding! They are still FROZEN. Look there is ice on my broccoli.
Ryan: So second dinner?
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
Day Sixty-Six
Second day of last week of camp.
Blocking.
It went smoothly enough.
We took a really long snack break.
With only 6 kids we tend to get done with games and such faster so we have more free time.
Went back to work right after lunch.
Swept and moped.
Filed some paper work.
Wrote down phone messages.
Went home for a nap.
Woke up and it was storming.
hard.
Went out to dinner with Cindy.Teressa.Ashli.and Cindy's brother.
Got in a fight with mom.
Fuck you CSU.
Blocking.
It went smoothly enough.
We took a really long snack break.
With only 6 kids we tend to get done with games and such faster so we have more free time.
Went back to work right after lunch.
Swept and moped.
Filed some paper work.
Wrote down phone messages.
Went home for a nap.
Woke up and it was storming.
hard.
Went out to dinner with Cindy.Teressa.Ashli.and Cindy's brother.
Got in a fight with mom.
Fuck you CSU.
Day Sixty-Five
This might possibly be my easiest week teaching yet.
6 Kids.
Who can for the most part all read.
Who all seem excited about the play.
They are hyper.
And get annoyed when playing some theatre games but whatever.
Saddest thing.
We get served lunch every day at 11:45. We are trained, there is a dinner bell and everything. Yesterday we didn't get feed until 12. No one was happy about this. We wanted our food..... fail.
Went back to the office right after lunch. No Charles this week, so I have no problem being there. I don't have a whole lot to do this week. Its nice. I got done at 130.
Dark Night Review.
One Word.
Amazing.
Party afterwards.
so much fun.
I sang Karaoke. I was so nervous. Its hard to sing in front of people who beat you out at GTC to get a job. But I did it. And everyone was surprised. I'm going into work a little later than normal. I'm tired of being the only one there for 20 mins.
5 days until I am back in Columbus.
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What I’ve learned is not to change who you are,
because eventually you’re going to run out of new
things to become.
6 Kids.
Who can for the most part all read.
Who all seem excited about the play.
They are hyper.
And get annoyed when playing some theatre games but whatever.
Saddest thing.
We get served lunch every day at 11:45. We are trained, there is a dinner bell and everything. Yesterday we didn't get feed until 12. No one was happy about this. We wanted our food..... fail.
Went back to the office right after lunch. No Charles this week, so I have no problem being there. I don't have a whole lot to do this week. Its nice. I got done at 130.
Dark Night Review.
One Word.
Amazing.
Party afterwards.
so much fun.
I sang Karaoke. I was so nervous. Its hard to sing in front of people who beat you out at GTC to get a job. But I did it. And everyone was surprised. I'm going into work a little later than normal. I'm tired of being the only one there for 20 mins.
5 days until I am back in Columbus.
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What I’ve learned is not to change who you are,
because eventually you’re going to run out of new
things to become.
Sunday, August 2, 2009
Day Sixty-Four AKA Looking back
This time next week I will be in Columbus. I will have left Flat Rock Playhouse pretty much for good and have many great memories to look back on. So lets recap on the lessons learned shall we?
I got here a full month after everyone else and yet I felt very welcome right from the start. My roommates are amazing and so are most of the other interns.
I learned that just because you have to celebrate your 21st birthday away from your friends and family doesn't mean its not going to be possibly the best birthday you have ever had.
I am not a good secretary. I'm not a bad one but I make little mistakes a lot, mainly because of my dyslexia.
Dan Dee may not have the best food in the world but when its the closet thing you come to a home cooked meal for two months you learn to love it.
Running almost everyday is good for the soul, mind and body.
Carl Sanburg's Home is beautiful.
Teaching is just as hard as it looks. When doing it with little kids its a lot of fun. But at the same time one of the hardest things that I will ever do.
In every job there will be something you do not like. This year it was my boss. But at least I still had a job I enjoy waking up at 8 am for.
Weekends off aren't as much fun without anyone to spend them with, but the time alone is good for your sanity.
NC has plenty of fun, beautiful land to explore.
Being 300 miles away from your boyfriend is not fun, at all.
Having family and friends come to visit is better feeling than Christmas.
If you let it happen, you will find a lot in common with your family.
The alarm only setting on my phone saved my life this summer.
Ice cream fixes most things.
Small showers can be fun
How to fall in love
Things I will miss:
My beyond wonderful roommates.
All the friends I made up here.
The kids.
The other teachers.
Running in the woods.
Rootabaga! Stories/ Popsicle days
The proud feeling at the end of the shows on Friday when the kids have done a great job and there parents look so impressed and proud.
Hugs from little kids who run up to me calling me Miss Brittain.
Fire Pits
Long walks with Teressa.
Midnight Studio.
The Mountain air
Sitting on my front porch listening to the show, watching movies or just hanging out and talking.
Having countdowns
I decided to do this post today even though I still have a week because I can sit here and remember it all in my room. I am going to miss it here so much. Even if I am so ready to be back home. Today is my last Sunday, my last lazy day. I have eaten great pizza done some office work and will now just sit back and watch it all happen. I feel so much better than I did at this point last summer. I feel like my life is on a good track. I feel like things have fallen back into place. I can go back to Columbus with a smile on my face ready to make the most out of my remaining time there.
I got here a full month after everyone else and yet I felt very welcome right from the start. My roommates are amazing and so are most of the other interns.
I learned that just because you have to celebrate your 21st birthday away from your friends and family doesn't mean its not going to be possibly the best birthday you have ever had.
I am not a good secretary. I'm not a bad one but I make little mistakes a lot, mainly because of my dyslexia.
Dan Dee may not have the best food in the world but when its the closet thing you come to a home cooked meal for two months you learn to love it.
Running almost everyday is good for the soul, mind and body.
Carl Sanburg's Home is beautiful.
Teaching is just as hard as it looks. When doing it with little kids its a lot of fun. But at the same time one of the hardest things that I will ever do.
In every job there will be something you do not like. This year it was my boss. But at least I still had a job I enjoy waking up at 8 am for.
Weekends off aren't as much fun without anyone to spend them with, but the time alone is good for your sanity.
NC has plenty of fun, beautiful land to explore.
Being 300 miles away from your boyfriend is not fun, at all.
Having family and friends come to visit is better feeling than Christmas.
If you let it happen, you will find a lot in common with your family.
The alarm only setting on my phone saved my life this summer.
Ice cream fixes most things.
Small showers can be fun
How to fall in love
Things I will miss:
My beyond wonderful roommates.
All the friends I made up here.
The kids.
The other teachers.
Running in the woods.
Rootabaga! Stories/ Popsicle days
The proud feeling at the end of the shows on Friday when the kids have done a great job and there parents look so impressed and proud.
Hugs from little kids who run up to me calling me Miss Brittain.
Fire Pits
Long walks with Teressa.
Midnight Studio.
The Mountain air
Sitting on my front porch listening to the show, watching movies or just hanging out and talking.
Having countdowns
I decided to do this post today even though I still have a week because I can sit here and remember it all in my room. I am going to miss it here so much. Even if I am so ready to be back home. Today is my last Sunday, my last lazy day. I have eaten great pizza done some office work and will now just sit back and watch it all happen. I feel so much better than I did at this point last summer. I feel like my life is on a good track. I feel like things have fallen back into place. I can go back to Columbus with a smile on my face ready to make the most out of my remaining time there.
Saturday, August 1, 2009
Day Sixty-Three
I woke up far earlier than I meant to today. I didn't really do anything thought. I am signed out for meals so around 12 30 I went and got food. Then I started my laundry and took a nap. And finally got rid of my headache.
Teressa and I went to my Aunt and Uncles for a cook out tonight. It was a lot of fun, and nice to get away from lot. We came back home, watched some movies went to a fire pit and really thats it.
Ryan talked me into staying through next Friday night. He made a good point, this way I get to really say goodbye.
Teressa and I went to my Aunt and Uncles for a cook out tonight. It was a lot of fun, and nice to get away from lot. We came back home, watched some movies went to a fire pit and really thats it.
Ryan talked me into staying through next Friday night. He made a good point, this way I get to really say goodbye.
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