An update on the life of a burnt out college student

As we reach this point in the semester I find it harder and harder to care about most things. Mostly school. There are days I am sure I could just sleep all day but I am never quite sure if that would even help this eternal state of half awake I seem to find myself in. Some days I even forget that I am almost done. In 19 days I will walk across that stage and worry about what comes next. Like I haven't been worrying about that for the last five years...

As strange as it sounds I don't always feel ready to leave. I know that I am ready but I am not always sure that my heart and my head are in the same place. I like school. I get burnt out on it but in the end I really like school. I like being a student. It isn't even a because it is a carefree lifestyle thing. Or a not wanting to grow up thing. I just like school. It makes me wonder if I should look into grad programs, but I just can't will myself to do it. As much as I like school, I think that I have been in some sort of a learning center/school since I was 9 months old and it makes me realize that it is time to get out.

But on the now. 2 weeks of classes left. 19 days till graduation. A whole lot of stress in between. And an strange calm that has set over me.