Rearcous is gone.
He was my brother, my idol, and most of all my friend. He loved without limits.And he meant every word he said.
I will always charish my memories with him. From catching his lasso during Midsummer, to him giving me that big hug the day I was inducted into APO. He was always there to tell me I was beautiful. He always made a bad day so much better. One of my favorite memories is when he walked in on me and mike in same and nick's kitchen last year. All he said was, OO I like this. I was embarrassed but at the same time it just made me laugh. He taught me how to properly yell ALPHA PSI!
I have cried so much over the past two days. Even though I know that he is looking down on us and saying "baby stop your crying". I just miss him so much.
One thing Dureya said really helped me out. " when good people die the sky clears us so they can get into heaven. Then it rains when they get in". Yesterday it was a beautiful day, it was suppose to be cloudy but it wasn't then around 5 it started to rain.
I know that he is up there watching over us and smiling. That he will always be with us.
So Rea,
I love you, more then words can say. I will miss you even more than that. Thank you for all that you taught me. Thank you for making me feel beautiful and for teaching em to live everyday to its fullest. Because as you always said, we only have today.
To all of my friends. I love you all so very much. Lets live our lives to the fullest. And love like Rea loved.
I can't not say that I have had to go through this a lot but I have a few times. And every time I have the over whelming erg to tell the people that I love, that I love them and say things to people that I need to say. This time was no differnt. I wanted to talk to Mike, I debated all day if I should call him and see how he was. Its because of Mike that I was able to become as close as I did with Rea and I knew how close they where. I couldn't however bring myself to call him. I knew I had a million things I wanted to say to him, but I couldn't figure out where to begin. When he showed up to our mass gathering in 120 last night I went up to him and gave him a hug, I didn't say anything I just gave him a hug. It broke my heart. I have only ever seen him cry once and I was afraid it was going to happen again. Before I left I went up to give him one last hug. He didn't let go. When we did break apart he grabbed both of my hands and squeezed them. That moment said more than any words could have. He knows I care about him, and I know he cares about me, and if I can take nothing else away from what we had together then I will be happy with that. I thank Rea so much for that. I am not sure why death brings people together. No I take that back I do know why, I kind of wish it didn't though.
Rest in Peace dear friend.
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