Senioritis

I have senioritis something awful right now!
To be honest with you I have had it for about two years now but it's kicking in full force this year. I feel zero motivation to go to class or do my work. I do both of these things and I am doing well in my classes but most days I just don't care.

I don't want to wish away this year. Its my last year of college and I want to enjoy this "carefree" lifestyle while I still can. But with that light at the end of the tunnel so close, it just becomes harder and harder to do that.

Part of this was triggered by senior sem on Friday. We read our manifestos. Now this is a paper that I never wanted to write. It has been stressing me out all semester. But once I wrote it, it was really not big deal. But when everyone went around the room and told what they wrote about it just become this really emotional day. Writing down what you feel about theatre but saying out loud is a whole other beast.

This weekend was also KK's wedding and let me tell you how much that did not help my I'm ready to graduate mindset. It is still the strangest thing in the world to me that my friends and I are old enough to be getting married. Let alone that I am engaged. The wedding was a great way to spend time with friends that I haven't really gotten to spend anytime with in a while. It also made me want to get married so much more! Three years is such a long time to wait. All I want to do is plan things and try on pretty dresses but I know that I still have over 2 years to do all this and that I shouldn't start now.

Sometimes I look back on my life here at CSU and I just have to laugh. I laugh at the good and the bad and the things that I have gone through. It just all seems so crazy. I wouldn't trade any experience I have had here. Sometimes I wish I could talk to my freshman self and just let her know that in the end it will all be ok. Like we said in senior sem the only advise we would give the incoming freshmen is to fail. Fail big time. And when your world feels like it is crashing down around you and you have to rediscover who you are, well then you know you are doing something right.

Fall Break Come Back Please

This past weekend was a whirlwind of a time with a lot of driving around. On Thursday Liz,Kristin, and I drove to Savannah. I love that city! We meet up with our friend Sam and got to hang out with him and some other friends from Columbus for the night. The next day was our GTC auditions. Before auditions I got to see my friend Jennifer from Flat Rock. It was so good to see her again! That summer will always be one of the best I have had and it's great to get to live in that moment again, even if it is only for a few minutes. Anyways..... The audition went, ok. I felt good about it, but it wasn't the best it has ever been. The audition felt kind of strange. But you win some you lose some.

Friday night Liz and I drove back to Columbus. We were both a little punch drunk from the stress of the day but it was a lot of fun to get to spend that much time with Liz.

Saturday morning I drove home. I got to have lunch with my dad and we went to a clothing warehouse and looked around for a while. That night we went out for Kaylee's bachlorette party. I will say before that night I had never been to a strip club. And now that I have been, I don't really want to go back haha! We had a fun time though so that is all that counts.

Sunday my mom let me sleep in and skip church since I didn't get in till 3:30, but that afternoon we went to church for the instillation of our new pastor. After a quick dinner I drove back home to Columbus.whew.

So like I said whirlwind with a lot of driving. This weekend isn't going to be much better with Kaylee's wedding, but I'm really looking forward to it.


I have started analysis number two for directing class. This one is a little more slow going then the last. Granted it is an older script with way more characters in it then 'Night Mother. I am really excited to do it though. I turned in my Directing two application today so I feel like I have to do really well on this scene. All in all I am about ready for this semester to be over. A nice break will be a good thing. Next semester is going to be super busy but it's my last one so I'm ready to take it on.

Fall Break

Fall Break was the best thing that has happened in a while!
It gave me time to get over this stupid head cold that I have, alas I still have a cough but it wouldn't be GTC without a cough now would it! I got to sleep and see friend, it has been lovely!

Today I plan on starting analysis number two! It is not due for about another month but I really want to knock it out early so that I am not stressing and so I can have Kate look over it for me.

I am so glad that this semester is half over! I am starting to feel antsy and I just want to get school over with. I have been here long enough now it is time to test my wings and see if I will soar or crash.

I am at 998 days until I will be Mrs.Rebuck, and while this is still 3 years away the fact that it is under a thousand days just makes me really excited! It is a new chapter of my life that I can not wait to experience. It is honestly a chapter that I never thought I would be able to open. But it is true what people say. When you know you know. My dreams and goals haven't changed, now I just get to take someone along for the ride :)

And a little less

This week has been a roller coaster of emotions.
First of all it was just a busy week. A paper for theatre history, my directing scene, two midterms and my manifesto. Lets just say I was not looking forward to it at all.
My paper was easy enough I guess, I wrote a letter from a wife to her husband who is away at war. Midterms were a hard, but it was my fault for not studying enough.

My scene, oh goodness my scene.
The cut of my scene was a very hard starting place, but I felt that it was the best place for me to start it. The end is really tricky to block, even the stage directions in the actual script were confusing to me. I had some people come in and watch my scene and help me fix the trouble spots which made me feel a lot better. In the end the scene went really well and I am very happy with it :)

My manifesto is still not done and a rough draft is due tomorrow. uhg. I just need to sit down and finish it but I have hit a wall.

Oh yeah, did I mention that I have a senior project jury tomorrow? This is the one thing Im not too horribly worried about. Chad is a great partner and I love the scene and now I just need to work it.

After tomorrow's jury I will be on fall break and all will be good :)

Oh, hello fall

So I went outside this morning and it was colder than it was in my house.....
I love fall.
I have always been a summer person, but for some reason this year I have really embraced this fall weather. I think it's because it makes me think of England. This is the weather, minus the rain, that I got to enjoy all summer and I love it!

I started rehearsals for my directing scene and things are going really well! I was having trouble with my blocking so I had Josh come in and help me fix some things and now I feel a whole lot better about it all.

This week I have two papers and two midterms.UGH! I am done with one paper which turned out to be not that hard, thank goodness! And the other one is the rough draft of my manifesto. I have been dreading this paper since I was a freshmen but I am not as scared about it as I thought I was going to be. I just need to sit down and write it. I am however nervous about my Theatre History and Philosophy midterms. I am currently taking a break from studying for my theatre history one.

I just have to keep thinking that we have a break after this week! That is what is getting me through. A nice long weekend and maybe Six Flags! I will just keep chugging along. And keep a positive attitude!