2010

It's that time again. Time to see the close of another year and dream about the next. This year has been amazing. Who would have thought that a year that started out at Hooters would have turned out so nice. So the big highlights of 2010?

*Hooters....
*Josh's and My's first home together
*Crazy For You, enough said
*So much dance
*An amazing 22nd Birthday
* ENGLAND
*Getting engaged :)
*Spelling Bee
*Knitting, knitting and then some more knitting

This year was filled with more love and friendships then I could have ever asked for. And now as I approach the final semester of college and the closing of a big chapter in my life. Now I get ready for the real world. For auditioning. For planning a wedding for living a my life to the fullest.

Home again

It's good to be home :)

I sit and realize that this is my last Christmas of college. The last Christmas break. It is both a happy and sad thing to realize. This break home is longer than last year, not like that is hard though. But it is still short, only a week. Today was the day to relax and knit. Tomorrow my dad and I are going Christmas shopping. Wednesday I am going to David's bridal with Leah and maybe Shannon. Thursday I am going into work with my mom and Friday Josh will be here to go to Christmas eve service with us. Then Saturday it is back to Columbus to spend the day with Josh's family.

I think I have an Internship for next semester which is a relief because otherwise I would not be able to graduate in may. For now I will keep fingers crossed and enjoy my time at home.

Last Fall Semester

Today I finished my last fall semester at CSU!

These last few weeks have been nothing short of crazy. First of all there was my Senior Acting Recital. It went better than I thought it ever could. Kate and Larry gave us high accolades after our final dress and that just put us all on a high. Different pieces felt stronger on different nights but over all I was just really proud of the work that we had all done on the show. Of course we all bawled the last night, it was a very bitter sweet ending.

There wasn't much time to ride the endorphins high however because it was now crunch time for finals. My final scene for directing also had to go up the day of my final dress for my acting recital. I had great actors and the best blocking I had, had for a scene yet. In the end I got an A on my analysis and scene and am very happy and proud about that. After a theatre history paper being written it was time to study study study. From the grades that have been posted it has been worth it. I got a C in Philosophy. Considering I thought I was going to get a D I was very happy. My theatre history final was this morning and I feel great about it :)

This time of the year also calls for hard goodbyes and Christmas parties. I had to say goodbye to one of my first friends here at CSU, it's going to be very strange to not have Liz around anymore but I'm so glad that she is getting out there and perusing her dreams. A few of my other friends also graduated this semester, it is going to be so weird for so many people I came in with to be going in January. I feel like almost every night for the past week I've been to one Christmas party or another. It has been a great way to unwind. Last night was a Wine and Cheese party with a bunch of Josh's English friends. It was so much fun to just sit around and talk to a bunch of new people and to get to know Josh's friends.

On Saturday my mom and Tori are coming to Columbus to see Oz and take me home on Sunday morning. I'm excited about coming home for a week and getting to see my old friends and possibly even start looking at wedding dresses. :)

So much to be thankful for

So last year I didn't go home for Thanksgiving. At the time I didn't think it would be that big of a deal. My family has always loved Thanksgiving but it never felt like this big important holiday.Boy was I wrong. It was very hard to be away from them and to spend it with someone else's family.

This year however was much different. Josh and I drove to Paulding Wednesday night and stayed threw yesterday morning. As always it Thanksgiving wasn't a huge ordeal but it was my family, and it was perfect. Then yesterday we drove back to Columbus to have Thanksgiving pt.2 with Josh's family. It was a great break. It was perfect.

Today is my last real day of break and it is going to lots of fun. In a little while I'm going to go get new headshots then tonight we are going to a hockey game! In one week I will be almost done with my senior project. I still can't fully wrap my mind around this.It just means that graduation is that much closer. Next semester is going to be busy and fun and I can't wait!

Running

So I might, and might is the key word here, be doing a commercial soon. It's Laura Croft theme so basically I need to get back in to the habit of working out again.

So to get back into the swing of things I ran the half loop of lake bottom yesterday. It's not very far but it was a good way to get started. Of course today my body hates me a little bit. But it will be worth it.

Next semester I am taking swimming and dancing in Robin's senior project so that should help me stay in pretty good shape :).

I have missed running outside so very much. It is a great way to clear my head. When I run outside I feel like I could run forever. I love it so much.

Stop stressing

I keep stressing over the little things.
This needs to stop. Ugh!
This always happens at the end of the semester. I just need to breath and remember that I am almost done with the semester. That next semester is the end. Honestly, and this is going to sound strange, I think that I am stressing so much because I have free time. I seem to stress more when I have time to not be productive.

But soon I will start rehearsals for my last directing scene.
I will start rehearsals for Robin's senior project (YIPIE!!!)
I have my senior project.

So I guess I should stop stressing and learn to embrace having time to be down with homework by 10pm

Life on the go

The past few weeks have been very busy but for a change not in a stressful way!
I've had general auditions,senior sem auditions,a directing scene, auditions for Robin's senior project and a Jury for my senior project.

It's been nice to be so busy because it keeps the stress of what is to come after graduation away. It's a nice introduction to what the dream is. Auditioning a lot and finding time for what little free time you can have to yourself.

On a completely different note my mom and I have been sending pictures of wedding dresses back and forth a lot this week. It's really exciting! I know that it is still really soon to start looking at dresses but we are trying to get a lot of things done now while I am guaranteed to be stationary because in a few months who knows what could happen. Plus anything I can do now to prevent stress when the wedding is closer is alright with me!

Senioritis

I have senioritis something awful right now!
To be honest with you I have had it for about two years now but it's kicking in full force this year. I feel zero motivation to go to class or do my work. I do both of these things and I am doing well in my classes but most days I just don't care.

I don't want to wish away this year. Its my last year of college and I want to enjoy this "carefree" lifestyle while I still can. But with that light at the end of the tunnel so close, it just becomes harder and harder to do that.

Part of this was triggered by senior sem on Friday. We read our manifestos. Now this is a paper that I never wanted to write. It has been stressing me out all semester. But once I wrote it, it was really not big deal. But when everyone went around the room and told what they wrote about it just become this really emotional day. Writing down what you feel about theatre but saying out loud is a whole other beast.

This weekend was also KK's wedding and let me tell you how much that did not help my I'm ready to graduate mindset. It is still the strangest thing in the world to me that my friends and I are old enough to be getting married. Let alone that I am engaged. The wedding was a great way to spend time with friends that I haven't really gotten to spend anytime with in a while. It also made me want to get married so much more! Three years is such a long time to wait. All I want to do is plan things and try on pretty dresses but I know that I still have over 2 years to do all this and that I shouldn't start now.

Sometimes I look back on my life here at CSU and I just have to laugh. I laugh at the good and the bad and the things that I have gone through. It just all seems so crazy. I wouldn't trade any experience I have had here. Sometimes I wish I could talk to my freshman self and just let her know that in the end it will all be ok. Like we said in senior sem the only advise we would give the incoming freshmen is to fail. Fail big time. And when your world feels like it is crashing down around you and you have to rediscover who you are, well then you know you are doing something right.

Fall Break Come Back Please

This past weekend was a whirlwind of a time with a lot of driving around. On Thursday Liz,Kristin, and I drove to Savannah. I love that city! We meet up with our friend Sam and got to hang out with him and some other friends from Columbus for the night. The next day was our GTC auditions. Before auditions I got to see my friend Jennifer from Flat Rock. It was so good to see her again! That summer will always be one of the best I have had and it's great to get to live in that moment again, even if it is only for a few minutes. Anyways..... The audition went, ok. I felt good about it, but it wasn't the best it has ever been. The audition felt kind of strange. But you win some you lose some.

Friday night Liz and I drove back to Columbus. We were both a little punch drunk from the stress of the day but it was a lot of fun to get to spend that much time with Liz.

Saturday morning I drove home. I got to have lunch with my dad and we went to a clothing warehouse and looked around for a while. That night we went out for Kaylee's bachlorette party. I will say before that night I had never been to a strip club. And now that I have been, I don't really want to go back haha! We had a fun time though so that is all that counts.

Sunday my mom let me sleep in and skip church since I didn't get in till 3:30, but that afternoon we went to church for the instillation of our new pastor. After a quick dinner I drove back home to Columbus.whew.

So like I said whirlwind with a lot of driving. This weekend isn't going to be much better with Kaylee's wedding, but I'm really looking forward to it.


I have started analysis number two for directing class. This one is a little more slow going then the last. Granted it is an older script with way more characters in it then 'Night Mother. I am really excited to do it though. I turned in my Directing two application today so I feel like I have to do really well on this scene. All in all I am about ready for this semester to be over. A nice break will be a good thing. Next semester is going to be super busy but it's my last one so I'm ready to take it on.

Fall Break

Fall Break was the best thing that has happened in a while!
It gave me time to get over this stupid head cold that I have, alas I still have a cough but it wouldn't be GTC without a cough now would it! I got to sleep and see friend, it has been lovely!

Today I plan on starting analysis number two! It is not due for about another month but I really want to knock it out early so that I am not stressing and so I can have Kate look over it for me.

I am so glad that this semester is half over! I am starting to feel antsy and I just want to get school over with. I have been here long enough now it is time to test my wings and see if I will soar or crash.

I am at 998 days until I will be Mrs.Rebuck, and while this is still 3 years away the fact that it is under a thousand days just makes me really excited! It is a new chapter of my life that I can not wait to experience. It is honestly a chapter that I never thought I would be able to open. But it is true what people say. When you know you know. My dreams and goals haven't changed, now I just get to take someone along for the ride :)

And a little less

This week has been a roller coaster of emotions.
First of all it was just a busy week. A paper for theatre history, my directing scene, two midterms and my manifesto. Lets just say I was not looking forward to it at all.
My paper was easy enough I guess, I wrote a letter from a wife to her husband who is away at war. Midterms were a hard, but it was my fault for not studying enough.

My scene, oh goodness my scene.
The cut of my scene was a very hard starting place, but I felt that it was the best place for me to start it. The end is really tricky to block, even the stage directions in the actual script were confusing to me. I had some people come in and watch my scene and help me fix the trouble spots which made me feel a lot better. In the end the scene went really well and I am very happy with it :)

My manifesto is still not done and a rough draft is due tomorrow. uhg. I just need to sit down and finish it but I have hit a wall.

Oh yeah, did I mention that I have a senior project jury tomorrow? This is the one thing Im not too horribly worried about. Chad is a great partner and I love the scene and now I just need to work it.

After tomorrow's jury I will be on fall break and all will be good :)

Oh, hello fall

So I went outside this morning and it was colder than it was in my house.....
I love fall.
I have always been a summer person, but for some reason this year I have really embraced this fall weather. I think it's because it makes me think of England. This is the weather, minus the rain, that I got to enjoy all summer and I love it!

I started rehearsals for my directing scene and things are going really well! I was having trouble with my blocking so I had Josh come in and help me fix some things and now I feel a whole lot better about it all.

This week I have two papers and two midterms.UGH! I am done with one paper which turned out to be not that hard, thank goodness! And the other one is the rough draft of my manifesto. I have been dreading this paper since I was a freshmen but I am not as scared about it as I thought I was going to be. I just need to sit down and write it. I am however nervous about my Theatre History and Philosophy midterms. I am currently taking a break from studying for my theatre history one.

I just have to keep thinking that we have a break after this week! That is what is getting me through. A nice long weekend and maybe Six Flags! I will just keep chugging along. And keep a positive attitude!

just bob with it

I actually went through with it, I cut my hair into a medium bob! I love it!! it sits just above my shoulders and feels so light :) It also makes me not look like I'm 15 so that's nice. It is also nice to know that if I can go this short I could go shorter, which I plan to do at sometime, I'm still dreaming about having that pixie cut!

I also get my new headshots done today, which I am really excited about. I haven't had new ones since the beginning of junior year so it's been a little while. Then I have to finish filling out all my paper work for GTC and that will be that. I only have a few more weeks till the conference and I am really excited about it!

Good Bee

Well I have now left Putnam County and I must say it was a very bittersweet goodbye. It was my last main stage show for CSU as I have decided not to accept roles for next semester. I know that it is a good choice for me. For one I would really like to direct a One Act. Of course I have to do well in Directing One first but I'm keeping my fingers crossed on that. Two I want to try and find extra work for the weekends if there is any that I can find so I have more to add to my resume which would be nice. But back to Spelling Bee. It was one of the best shows that I have gotten to work on at here, and the audiences seem to really enjoy it too! So I couldn't of asked for a better last show :)

Gtc Convo was on Friday and I think that this is the best audition package that I have ever had! Overall I feel like CSU is sending a really strong group if auditioners. So I'm keeping my fingers crossed and hoping for the best!

Directing one is not as scary as I thought it was going to be. My first analysis is coming along nicely and is due Thursday. I am really excited about my actors too and I know that they will do well!

I think I will now get back to my knitting and enjoy what is left of my relaxing day.

Back to school

Well the semester has started back in full force!
All of the classes I am taking this semester require a lot of reading and papers. I told my mom that I am going to schedule a nervous breakdown in October. I know I will able to get it all done but I also know it is going to be a LOT of work.

Spelling Bee is still going well. Of course with the good comes the bad,but it will only make me work harder.

I tired on the wedding dress that my mom bought but never used to see if I liked the fit of the top so I could shorten it, but it didn't fit like I wanted it to so it looks like it is back to the drawing board for the reception dress. I also tried on the dress that my mom did use, it was beautiful but just not the dress for me, luckily my mom felt the same way :)

That Bee thing

It is day three of Spelling Bee and I am already so tired! But in a good way.
I feel like its rehearsals on crack, 5 hours a day doesn't seem like it would be that bad but it is a lot to take in a once.

We have been doing a lot of character work for this show, which is not something I am used to doing with musicals, but with Dur it's pretty much a must. I have really liked that time to play though! Since I am the understudy I don't get to work on the characters on stage but when we do character work I get to work out these three different girls life's for myself. I have tired to take time each day to work on each one of them, but most. Something happened yesterday when we where doing once exercise. Something that it took 4 semesters of failed Misner to happen. I started to cry. Just putting my character in a situation made me cry! It was a very freeing moment. I also crafted an entire world for one of my characters that I am really excited to play with.

Today I got to go on all day as Marcy, which was fun and stressful all at once. It was fun to be someone, but it made it much harder to remember blocking for everyone else that I have to keep tabs on, especially while we where blocking a song. Granted I'm pretty sure no one wrote down much blocking for that song, things kept changing! But I think I have it all straight for the most part.

I'm not going to lie, now that we have started rehearsals it makes me more then a little scared to start classes. I am so tired at the end of every day that I don't want to do much. Once I throw class work in there things should get very interesting. I'm going to be glued to my planner this year. I must keep everything organized or I will lose a lot of time! Oh boy got to love a challenge!

On a completely different note, I want to cut my hair really badly. I want to chop it all off! Not because of the heat, not because I am upset just because I want to. I know that I can't really justify it though and I can't really do anything to it until after the show or Kaylee's wedding anyways. Basically by then my hair is going to be stupid long, but maybe by then the feeling will change who knows.

270 days till graduation!

Sleepless dreamer

Tonight marks night two that I have not been able to go to sleep at a normal hour. I finally fell asleep at 5 am yesterday and right now it is 3 am and there is no sleep in sight for me!

I'm sure it's just stress related due to school and looking for work and such, I just wish that it would pass soon so that I can get on a normal sleep cycle before school starts.

I made Josh walk around to a few different bridal stores today, I think he enjoys planning for the wedding more than we lets on. It's still really early so we didn't really look at much, just brides maids dresses and what colors we want. We decided on brown and green, technically clover and latte, earthy colors and a summer wedding for us! It's still strange to me, I a few years ago I would have never guessed that I would be thinking about colors and dresses for me, for my friends sure but for me not so much.

Spelling Bee starts Monday and I am really excited! I am excited to work with a new director and just see this show develop. I am a little less excited about classes starting back up. I'm ready to get back into the swing of things but my classes are scaring me already! But I will get through it and in 275 I will be a graduate of CSU!

On The Other Side

Well I'm home from England!
To say it was amazing trip is an understatement. I saw more things in 3 weeks then I had in all the summers that I have been in college. So much history! So many Sheep! SO MUCH FOOD! We walked on average 5 miles a day, walking through cold and rain but so worth it.

It is interesting to see how people are the same no matter where you are. And yet so very different.At times I felt like I was sitting in Spanish class all over again because I couldn't understand what was being said to me! But once you get used to accents and slang everything gets a lot easier.

Of course I got sick while I was there. Cold plus dog equals fun allergies for Brittain! But I didn't let it ruin my trip in the least. With lots of water and medicine I was able to enjoy walking around after one day of being really sick.

I only saw one show while I was in England, Avenue Q.... Amazing! I stand by what I have been saying all summer. I didn't want to see a lot of theatre while I was there. I wasn't there to see theatre. I was there to see history and family and get to be a non theatre person for a little while. And the break from it was much needed but now I am ready to jump feet first right back into theatre, because I missed it but like I said it was nice to be able to do other things that I love.

I guess I should mention that I did get ENGAGED! :D
It was at a castle with one of the most amazing views that we had seen the whole trip, granted I am slightly biased about it now. It is funny to think that when we started dating neither one of us wanted to get married. But in time it just felt right. Being together felt right.It is weird to make plans with someone, to talk about a future and it doesn't scare me. It's still a weird concept to me but hey I have 3 years before we plan on getting married, plenty of time to figure out how to reach both of our goals and dreams.

8 Days till take-off

Since this is the first summer of actually vacation time that I have had since the summer after freshman year, it took me a while to get used to it. But now that I have, it realize that it was just what I needed. I just needed a break from everything, and even though it has sucked not having a job, it has been nice to catch up on sleep.

I have been able to go home more this summer than any other time this year. It actually feels like I don't really live there for the first time since I have moved out. My room is really not my room, it is a holding place for clothes and things that need to be given to good will. Hell I am even getting payed to watch the house and animals this weekend! It was nice having a brother for the summer too. I know my parents really loved having someone in the house again, and they couldn't have lucked out anymore than having Tony.

These past few weeks have also been filled with what seems like nothing but weddings. It is like everyone I know is getting married, planning a wedding, or having a child. Emily and Mac's wedding was beautiful, one of the best weddings that I have ever been to. I have always loved traditional weddings, there is something so breath taking about them to me.

We leave for England a week from tomorrow! I can't believe it is already time to go. I have been dreaming about it, and dreading that I wouldn't be able to go for one reason or another. And that it is actually here, I am so excited. I refuse to let the worries that have been building up lately to bog me down while I am there.

So until I am back in the states, I may not blog again. See you on the other side.

Summer, not so planned.

I can tell already that this summer will be different than any other.
Not having anything planed until July is very relaxing.
It has been rough going trying to find a job since I will be gone so long, but I haven't lost all hope just yet. I still have two more prospects and if those don't pan out, well then I will just have to deal with it then I guess.

Megan has moved in all of her stuff and will officially move in on Tuesday :) It will be nice to have another girl in the house. It will be a bit of an adjustment however. Josh and I have gotten into a groove and throwing someone else into it will take so getting used to, but I'm really excited about her being here!


The only major downer to this summer so far have been the fact that I will not be able to graduate in December like I had planned. I was really mad at first but there is nothing I can do about it, and I was going to be here anyways so it's not like I have to find someone where to live or anything.


All the major things for the England trip have fallen into place. I have enough spending money to go over there with, the tickets are bought, and my passport came in. I can't wait for this trip! Three weeks in a a country that I have only ever dreamed of being in. I know we are going to try to go to London for at least a day and maybe even Scotland!


Josh and I hit the one year mark. I was both stunned and amused by this. Stunned because I have never been able to make a relationship work for this long before. And amused because most days if feels like so much longer, we really are an old married couple some days but I wouldn't have it any other way.

I'm not gonna cry, not one sad or happy tear

It's a very strange feeling to see all my friends from back home graduating. They did it. In four years they got through college and now are going into the real world. And me? I still have one more semester. Let's be real. I was never planning on graduating in four years. I never really wanted to. I wanted to take my time, make decent grades and enjoy the ride.

But now?

I almost feel like I have fallen behind.

But I also know that in a few short months I will be done.
And it will be a great feeling.

Anyways.
The semester is over and I am so very glad. Now it is time to relax and take a break for once. I am still on the job hunt, but I have a few leads that look promising. My goal list for the summer is a bit domestic for once.

I want to get the house in good shape.
Find material for my senior acting recital.
Work out.
Teach Josh how to ride a bike.


I am ready to take this summer on with open arms and a positive attitude.

where they go hardcore and there's glitter on the floor

I really think this entry could have just been called crazy for you, for that is what has taken over my life for the past few months. It has been a crazy ride with our director leaving for a month which meant we ran what we had a lot. When she came back we hit the ground running getting everything else done and had a cute new china baby to play with. We went into tech last weekend and the negative emotions surfaced. None of us are really used to working on a show this long without preforming it. We have had injuries and are all in general just sleep deprived. But we have pulled it together and I know that this weekend the show will be amazing. I just hope my leg can hold out that long.

A mist all this craziness I have also moved into a new house. The house is still a mess because we have both been too busy to organize but it feels more and more like a home every day. It isn't the easiest living situation, living with your boyfriend never is. There are fights, but over all I think it has brought us closer together.

This semester is almost over which is strange for me, I feel like we just started. With only one semester left I can finally see that light at the end of the tunnel.